NeW FasHioN....

• lamak na juak sik berblogging...hehe...2 ari jak pun..bkn sik maok, tp busy n sikda masa nak type...ney ndak bz, selasa berjalan dgn dak safa sampey mlm....sampey umah, dah rasa nak mampus...rabu gago polah buletin terakhir....sedey la pulek..
• so whats up???today isnt a really gud day to me....why???i got all the muds on my slacks...imagine jak keta nana stuck kat dlm lumpur kat asrama ompuan masa nak anta dewi pulang...i had that experience b4 n luckily i could handle it briliantly without anyone helping me....marek pun nyaris2 gik but today nang dah takdir nak stuck dlm lumpur ya...tried my best utk tekan minyak n get out of the mud tp sik bjaya...finally, had to la tolak keta ya...nang rasa hero jak kmk 2 sapri nolak keta ya n finally Alhamdulillah, dpt juak kuar..yapun setelah puas org ramai kat asrama ompuan menonton show paling hebat BELIEVE IT OR NOT!!!nang la best...dahla dpt bonus gik ya....bonus lumpur kat seluar....nang ceridak jak RUPA n RASA time ya...pulang asrama, org nego nanyak kenak???gugok ka???haruska pk mcm ya???tokla fesyen alaf baru ok...lumpuran kasih namanya....haha....mula2 ingat nak clean up kat hostel jak tp sikda seluar xtra...by hook or by crook, tpaksa juak balit umah tok....gney nak polah...petang tek dtg gik ke mktb, nak fotostat buletin terakhir maktab...rasa sedey pun ada juak tp what to do...eth that starts will hv an ending...so does my duty....its time to give the crown to a new winner...haha...hope the new exco will do the best la...hehe...
• got to go now...agak penat n cant wait for the class to end tomoro coz holiday will start....huahuahua...

-i have worn a new fashion today-

HePi BdaY 2 Hady!!!

HePi BuRfDay To U...
HePi BuRfDaY To U...
HePi BuRfDaY To HaDy MiRzA...
HePi BuRfDaY To U...

Allah selamatkan kamu...
Allah selamatkan kamu...
Allah selamatkan Muhd Mirzahady...
Allah selamatkan kamu...

SeLaMaT HaRi JaDi...
SeLaMaT HaRi JaDi...
SeLaMaT HaRi JaDi HaDy...
SeLaMaT HaRi JaDi...

• today is HADY's burfday....he is now 28 years old....i pary for his success....may Allah bless him...gudluck in everything he does....HePi BuRfDaY HaDy.....
• oso wanna take this opportunity to wish Hepi Burfday to my bEsT FrEn, ImAn....hePi 22nd BdAy ya.....

-iM HepI foR thEiR BdaY-

AnTaRa MaGiK DaN KeJuTaN...

• sori the entry for AJL is quite late...mls nak polah mlm tek coz sikda mood....mood dah ilang dimbak ketidakpuasan hatiku dgn result AJL kali tok....first n foremost, lets start wif the concept of the ceremony...i think magical music didnt really exist that nite..duno y tp mcm sik glak pun magiknya...they tried to make magic2 things but i jt didnt see much of the magic2 thing they said....maybe im jt blind....haha...
• secondly, bout the performance....jinbara opened the show wif kinda duno what to say....it was just an average performance to me...then came in nora wif samudera...i thought she did pretty gud but the sound system was too loud that it covered nora's voice....but i like her performance though....fazli zainal wif my fav song took the stage and it was not his best performance....vocally, i tot semi final was better....maybe he was stressed n i thought he had a very gud emotional control....i could feel the sadness when he sang... he even cried if im not mistaken...it was pretty gud but i thought he could do better....
• highlight of the nite (for me la).....DATO' SITI came in n it was a stunning performance, i could say....bkn nak membela but it was true that i didnt expect she would perform like that...i thought she might hv performed sampey jak but eth changed...she did well...its jt that her vocal had some problem but i thought it was ok....her dance steps were amazing..she danced babe n i wanted her to win best performance....
• after siti, sapa perform???sik ingatla pulek...oh ya, it was fiq who sang on behalf of faizal tahir for mahakarya cinta...an okay performance i guess n celak, very the tebal!!!sori na...sikda niat nganok, jt lucu jak rasa..hehe....after that, aishah came in wif kasihnya balqis....like her performance very much n she reminded ppl of her janji manismu kot...very the props kak chah kita....haha....then misha la pulek masuk....simple kali juak performance..mcm sik btanding jak rupa....dahla pakey jeans jak...kali nang sik maok menang kot....sori sap....hehe....the sofaz dgn entah apa2 la....then ada pulak mawi yg malas aku nak komen....sahri yg not bad tp still love kaer's version.....maybe sahri's voice is too heavy unlike kaer that makes kaer has a better touch to this song....hehe...ramlah ram wasnt deliver the song quite gud...as expected, she had pitching probs...haha...i quite like ceritera cinta n i think they did excellent in the song....bob delivered the song in his own way but he forgot some of the lyrics...but its ok coz he was the bidan terjun....estranged did okay to me..they werent my preference n i thought that rich's voice was average...hehe..sori to all estranged's fans....
• bout the result, i wonder y there were 2 singers won best vocal...cant they just give it to jac???hehe....i expected that siti wont win vocal award but i expected her to win best performance...she did damn gud babe....but u knowla when sms comes in, anything can happen...with the existence of mawi, for sure la all da makcik2 vote for him...but what to do, bkn rezeki kan...hehe...as expected, nora won etnik kreatif...i want harapan to win balada but rezeki was not wif him...itu kamu was not in my list coz i wanted siti to win tp gney la nak polah kan...huhu....sikpala, but its gud to watch siti in AJL again...hehe..
• so in conclusion, AJL this year not that magic but okla....

-im frustrated-

aNuGeRaH JuArA LaGu 22..

tomoro will be the nite of magic...tomoro will be the nite of memories...tomoro will be the nite of mission...tomoro is the ANUGERAH JUARA LAGU, which is the 22nd edition...unbelievable but its true...haha...i cant wait for the show...its been my fav show since DATO' SITI NURHALIZA won her first AJL in 1996 through Jerat Percintaan...so tomoro is the nite of come back for her after not competing in AJL for 3 consecutive years...what a wonderful magic is that???so lets talk bout the contestants for the final...there will be 14 songs competing against each other n i do hv few fav songs which i really hope could win some of the awards...hopefully!!!

etnik kreatif:

• samudera (NORA) - this is my fav song n i think it has the chance to win....
• kasihnya balqis (AISHAH) - i love aishah but duno bout the chances yet
• dirgahayu (RAMLAH RAM) - love her but i dun think this song will win..hehe

balada:

• ceritera cinta (JAC & LAH VE) - lovely song but dunola
• kasih tercipta (will be sung by AJAI) - no comment
• izinku pergi (will be sung by SAHRI) - nice song but i think kaer does better
• mahakarya cinta (will be sung by FIQ) - okla n no comment
• harapan (FAZLI ZAINAL) - my fav song n i hope it wins

pop rock:

• angan dan sedar (MAWI) - not bad but less chance to win
• farhana puteri bumi kenyalang (JINBARA) - not my fav song
• janjiku (SOFAZ) - okla but less chance to win
• sembunyi (MISHA OMAR & ANDY) - nice song n quite gud
• itu kamu (ESTRANGED) - new genre of song n quite gudla
• destinasi cinta (DATO SITI NURHALIZA) - my fav song n wanna it wins

so basically, i want samudera or kasihnya balqis to win etnik kreatif, harapan to win balada n destinasi cinta to win pop rock....best vocal will be a very competitive category coz too many great singers r in....but hope siti wins la...n hope she wins for best performance as well....hehe...so jt wait n stay still in front of the tv tomoro nite, at 830pm yah...will hv special entry bout AJL soon....

-im excited babe-

My SeCreT is MinE....

BIARLAH RAHSIA

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Berada di tempat ku membayangkan

Pahit manis berlaku

Tiada siapa yang tahu

Mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan

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Dan kisahku yang masih panjang

Menambahkan berat yang memandang

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Biarlah rahsia

Semakin aku hitung dalam cinta

Tiada kuasa mampu menghalangnya

Hentikan kata-kata bertulangkan dusta

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Menambahkan berat yang memandang

Lantas ku pendam ku putuskan

Biarlah rahsia

Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika berada di tempatku...

everyone has their own secret to be kept to themselves...so do i...though i wanna share it to other ppl, i just cant....not everyone can be told...not everyone can be trusted...im x sure wif what i hv now, can other ppl understand what sort of burden i do hv on my shoulder now....will they be able to understand my situation....will they be able to help me wif it....i wonder....i admit that some ppl that i trust can understand it but i dun want because of me, they face another prob...its fine wif me to shoulder eth on my own....i owe their willingness to listen to me but i dun hv the heart to see them become the victim of my problem....let me shoulder eth on my own...i appreciate every single moment they spend wif me to help me....i am glad to hv them as my frens....but i cant see them facing another problem just because of me..thats unfair rite???so ill just keep some for myself....keep them deep inside my heart....though it's hurt n torturing, im willing to face it....it's my prob n it wont be others'.....

-im x sure if other ppl would understand me-

KePaKnYa....

rasa nak mampus jak ari tok...kepak yg tidak terkata...MR D (bkn nama sbnr) telah bjaya membalas dendamnya dgn menyeksa diriku dan yg lain2 dengan melakukan pelbagai xtvt sukan selama 3 jam....this is torturing n im very tired rite now...nak bjln pun rs mcm sik larat jak tek...ala2 kramp jak kaki tok...haha...nangla rasa nak mampus jak rsnya....quoting from rifky "main bol pun kepak kedak tok".... see, sportsman pun rasa nak mampus...apatah lagi cheerleader...kuang kuang kuang...nangla seksa jak nyawa tek...nasib baik ada semangat n tahan diri yg kuat...mun sik, konpom pancit di tgh jalan...haha...the best xtvt we had for me is skipping rope...dah lamak sik main benda ya...it used to be my fav childhood xtvt....haha....nangla rasa gimnas jak tek....yang paling ku benci is test ya...nangla mendera MR D (bkn nama sbnr) tok....mesti nya suk dpt mendera kmk org though nya pdh tok nak ngetes sejauh ney fitnya kmk org...takde maknenya....arap nxt week sikla kedak tok agik..sik sanggup rsnya nak menempuh benda tok gik...i dun mind wif pj but x this type of pj, which i think very torturing n ala2 tentera jak....imagine la 3 hours of xtvt yg mmg mencabar n molah rs nak mati jak...apala punya MR D (bkn nama sbnr)....tok pun rs nak mampus jak....nak tertido jak rasa dek kekepakan yg amat sgt tp suk coz elaun dah kuar...best2...to all penerima elaun, spend wisely....

-im damn tired n exhausted-

LiFe Has tO mOvE On...

life has to move on...no matter what happenes in ur life, u ought to move on..God has given us life so that we can make full use of it...though stimes we might face challenges, we need to take it positively....undeniable that we will somehow feel depressed n wanna give up, but its all about life...we r the 1 who will determine our own fate n destiny...so what shd we do now is be strong n let time decides...this is particularly meant for me...ive done my part n i know its not gud enuf but i have tried...i just wanna be like normal..thats all....so pray that i can be as tough as i can....

-im trying-

a BiT beTTeR BuT X sO...

i feel better today after share my probs wif my fren...thnaks ya for lending ur ears...but im still thinking of it...maybe im too sensitive???maybe im too judgemental???i duno...somehow i start to feel that i dun hv to pretend anymore...but the other part of me says that i shd...sometimes i feel that im giving up but the other time i feel that i hv to go on like this...so what shd i do???so kesian kan???but thats life....tapi i still hv another prob...a fren of mine is changing n im x sure what shd i do???shd i go and advise my fren???shd i jt let it be....maybe im too conservative when it comes to this stuff...so im totally hv no idea what to do now....one prob after another....dahla sigek blm selesai, then comes in another one...pelik bin ajaib but thats life....

-i feel better today but x so much-

pLiZzZ hELP Me!!!

im in the state of unsure now...im x sure wif my own feelings...im x sure if im hurt, angry, happy or what...i jt cant think of the answer yet...i start to wonder y do i hv to face all this???i want my life back....i want the jovial ashairi back!!!i really mean it actually...i just want the moments i had last time come back...im x sure on how long must i endure n stand all this wait...am i stupid to feel like that???i just cant make myself comfortable everytime i have to face that person...i duno how long will we be like this...i want a life n moments i used to have back...y all this happens???y things cant be better???im x sure n i duno y....i want things get better but im x sure how n when...some ppl say let time decides but how long we hv to wait....how long can we stand all the suffer???i just cant do this...im x a gud actor though a pretender....i wanna cry but i cant...i just can say that be patient coz i dun hate that person...its just that i want time on my own...but i duno how much time do i need for myself???a day, a week, a month or a year or forever???history occurs n we learn tru mistakes...but y does it happen???im x sure n im still seeking for the answer...do help me frens...i cant think anymore...everyday i hv to wear mask so that ppl ard duno what happens...everyday i hv to pretend that im fine though im not...i cant bear all this...i need to get myself out of it...do help me God n everyone!!!

-im not sure if i can bear it any longer-

PeNaNtiAn SaTu PenYiKsAaN....

"PENANTIAN"

Berapa lama mesti kunanti

Sinar cahaya matamu

Gemerlap bagai bintang

Menghiasi malam

Malam yang menutup diriku

Berapa lama perlu kutunggu

Lontaran suara dari bibirmu

Memecah hening taman

Taman syurgawi

Pada sebuah hati yang sepi

Penantian suatu siksa

Yang tidak tertanggung

Oleh tubuhku yang kering dan layu

Kepastian suatu penawar

Dalam suka dan duka

Yang meniti hidupku

• it is indeed torturing to wait...im x only talking bout waiting for someone once we hv planned to meet or anyhow but its all about when we hv things going on in our life...to wait is a torture for me..i was n am experiencing it....duno how to say but im tortured actually....to be a gud actor is not an easy job...to wait is indeed challenging n u r unsure on when the rite time comes...
• u mite hv waited for a long time in ur life...u think that u hv done the best part but actually u r not...u mite think that u hv satisfied everyone but u havent.....u might feel that u r on the right side but u might not....why is this happening to us???
• we hv never asked to face challenges in our life but it is a way of maturing us....to make us grow n to teach us how hard the life would be....to enable us have time on our own to think n to reflect on our actions.....somehow u might feel wanna give up but u cant..this is a test where u hv to think for the answer.....u hv to look for the cause of the problem n so on...
• i wanna say that my life is a disaster for this year...im x sure y but i hv to face so many things early of the year...y cant i hv and lead a normal life as what i hv done each n every year????y cant i have my life back????y cant i????
• its torturing to think bout all this....though i can stop thinking bout it, i jt cant.....im x sure y n what makes me think bout it.....im fed up n stimes i wanna give up.....plizz help me.....
• im x sure how long must i endure all this pain.... n how much longer hv i to wait....im tired of waiting.....

-im waiting n keep on waiting-

i JuSt dUnO y tHiS hApPeNs....

im indeed confused with my own situation now....i jt get mysef in a dilema...i duno what happens to me....im x sure what will happen to me...though i look like s1 who is full of hepiness, but no 1 knows what i hv in my heart....im jt like other normal ppl....hv feelings n stimes will get hurt....i jt duno y all this happens to me...i know its the God's test....im willing to accpet it but i jt duno how long can i be that strong....how long can i endure the pain n suffer....how much time i need to take in order to get my life back....im x so sure bout that....im indeed duno what to do...currently, the only thing that i can do is having song in my mind....the BERSERAH song...jt very suitable for me at d moment...everything in the song seems to have some connection to me...how strong am i to face all these????

x FeELinG WeLL....

• im x feeling well today...
• so my mind isnt working properly today...
• due to so many things i need to think of...
• hmmmm

-im x feeling well-

im x SuRe...

manusia kadang2 sik mampu nak polah keputusan yang sebaiknya kan...i wonder y must stimes we choose wrongly....due to that, i start to wonder if i hv chosen the wrong way....am i???im x sure what is goin on now.....im x sure what is my state now....maybe im damn bz like hell...thats y i dun hv time to think bout it....but ill try to see if i can solve it a.s.a.p...

-im x sure of myself now-

iM LoSt...

duno y but totally lost now...no mood to do anything though ive got many things to do....what shd i do???escape???go for a holiday???suicide???suicide wont solve anything btw...im lost n duno what to do...i feel very tired wif all this....if i were given chance, i will try to escape from facing this....i dun like this feeling btw....im thinking of looking reasons not to go to class...how i wish i could....nothing happens even i go to class..so better dun kan????duno n duno...im lost n wondering, when will this end????

-im lost-

BeRsErAh.....

"BERSERAH"

Gerhana meliputi segala

Tiada lagi sinaran cahaya

Keinginan tanpa kepastian

Tak mampu rasanya ku teruskan

Ku meneruskan...

Biarlah ku relakan segala

Walau hidupku sebuah tanda tanya

Mengapa...Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan

Tak akan pernahku akui kalah

Masih terdampar ku disini

Tiada jalan mungkinku lalui

Harusnya hidupku dipersenda

Mengharungi dugaan melanda

Ku berserah...

Biarlah ku relakan segala

Walau hidupku sebuah tanda tanya

Mengapa...Biarpun tak mampuku bertahan

Tak akan pernahku akui kalaH

Tuhanku ku relakan segala

Takkan pernahku akui kalah

Percayaku yakin padanya

Dia yang menentukan semua

Ku berserah...

(ORIGINALLY SUNG BY TAUFIK BATISAH n HADY SUNG IT DURING ASIAN IDOL)

• this is what inspires me now....
• i jt hope eth will be fine soon....
• im indeed need to think but im x sure how shd i start it....
• i believe that nobody is at fault....
• its just the coincidence makes us like this....
• i dun hate u but i need time to recover....
• i duno how long will it take....
• i dun hate u, thats all i can say....
• maybe the rite time will come soon....
• i duno how n when to start the first step....
• therefore, ill just let everything decides by God....
• I WILL BERSERAH!!!!

TuHaN yG TaHu....

tok entry spesel utk cerita ya.....after watching cita ya, rasa mcm cita ya ada kureng la kit compare to sebuah ijtihad....duno y as if the pengolahan of the story has not given lots of impact to the viewers.....maybe coz nya based on true story, so have to control on certain scene la....so blh katakan yg cita ya sik brapa glak unlike sebuah ijtihad la.....but sheila n afdlin did a gud job....unfortunately, their characters restricted them to show their wide range of acting.....but kira okla...hehe.....

-i still prefer sebuah ijtihad as my fac story-

PeNaT La PuLeK....

ari ni menjadi ari yg penat kerana saya telah menghadiri maraton kelas hubungan etnik....saya rasa sungguh lucu apabila pegi kuliah ari sabtu....dahla ngantok sahaja rasanya...tp okla, at least sik payah mbik subjek tok kat ukm lak...haha....

we were given assignment n i had nana, hai, sap n dylan in my grup....we chose melanau ethnic for our project...sik saba nak start wei...dah byk idea dlm otak tok....arap2 mampu dijelmakan dlm realiti...haha....

after kelas, kmk org pegi mkn n then we did sth yg sik penah dipikey org pun....pegi carwash free....nang rasa best jak coz i really hate to wash cars....so since ada peluang tok, y dun we jt grab it????haha....nang berkilat jak keta ya after dicuci free tek...haha....

mlm tok ada cita yg mcm best jak 'TUHAN YANG TAHU'.....sheila rusly n afdlin shauki....dgr cita better than sebuah ijtihad...harap2 giala...geng ICT ku dah ready nak nangis..haha...i pulak prepare towel mandi, key ngelap air mata...haha...

okla, nak polah keja lain lok....lak mun dah nangga cita ya, akan ada update spesel utk cita ya....btw, wanna wush 'HEPI BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DATIN SERI HAJJAH SITI NURHALIZA' yang ke 29!!!!!!

-i cant wait to watch the drama-

AnD d WinNeR iS.....

sorila, miss sigek entry marek...kepak glak2....haha...nang dah plan nak type entry baru tp mlm tek gago polah majalah...bila dah shut down pc baru ingat psl entry of the day...so sorila guys ho...hehe....

• btw, i did my best for the syarahan agama competition...
• at first, i was the contestant num 16....
• then i changed to num 2....
• when the competition starts, i was announced as the 1st speaker.....
• boleh mcm ya????
• terkejut aku dibuatnya.....
• i only got my text done the nite b4....
• yapun sempat 3,4 kali jak prektis......
• so just did my best.....
• mmg nebes la coz the 1st speaker kan....
• i tried to cool down.....
• i hope that i can calm down.....
• things happened like normal....
• got very shacky at the first few minutes.....
• then managed to calm down....
• didnt manage to use all my script...
• at times, i had to cut my script n used my brain to present my argument....
• thanks God coz my brain was working....
• ended my speech more than 7 minutes, though i had the best time of 6.45 minutes....
• was nebes coz from 9 male contestants, i can see fews talented speakers....
• i didnt expect much coz i had 3,4 speakers who did better than me...
• so, can imagine that to win 1st place was very tough....
• then cikgu mus stood up, giving the judges' comments....
• he mentioned that i had a good arrangement of points n he oso said that i wasnt the winner
• boleh sik mcm ya???very the hinting.....
• then result was announced....
• safa got 3rd place for girls....
• n the mc announced.....
• 3rd place for syarahan agama lelaki goes to.....
• "PESERTA DARI TESL KOHOT 3, ASHAIRI SULIMAN"....
• i was hepi coz didnt expect to get it...
• thought that i got 4th place...
• azizi got second n pismp agama student got first....
• when i took my prize, ustaz saleh sempat pdh ni tamadun dpt A...haruska ulang lagi???
• but ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!!
• i got a book n rm10 cash.....
• haha.....mmg sik sangka, tp mcm bestla juak....
• this is my come back la kira2nya.....
• so thanks for everyone who has prayed n wished me.....
• thanks to those who came n supported me at the competition....
• last but not list, "HIJRAH KE ARAH KEGEMILANGAN AGAM DAN BANGSA"

-i was the 3rd place winner for syarahan agama-

iM nEbEsSs....

esok aku join ptandingan syarahan agama tertutup IPBL sempena Awal Muharam...nebes li juak eh...the last time i joined this competition was in 2000, masa form 2 dolok...so ala2 come back jak tok..after 8 years la pulak kan...haha...tok pun nyempat kejap molah entry utk syarahan ya....though dah penah bahas2 mcm ya, tp nebes tok nang sik dpt buang...kinek tgh dlm proses latihan....arap dgn teks tok n persembahan yg bgs esok, aku dpt menang...mmg aku maok menang tp rezeki Allah, sapa tauk...wateva it is, ill just give myself the very best....jd mcm HADY la aku tok rsnya...haha....do pray 4 me ya...GUDLUCK to me SHERI!!!!!

-im nebes now-

sEhAtLa kO yA??

aku eran dgn manusia yg sgt prejudis tok...mentang2 la nya ya org sukan, then look down upon org bkn sukan, in particular aku...i think wateva jd, suma ada reason tsendiri...so, there's no point of nak look down upon others ya...ANDA ya pun bknnya bgs glak...ngenang ANDA ya lecturer aku bah, or else...aku dah lepas jak dpn ya...plizz la, sik payah nak mention n become prejudis dgn aku....mentang2 aku bkn sportsman, ANDA nang pandang aku hinala...mentang2 aku tok saiz besar, ANDA nak anok aku tok sik sihatla....ello, do open ur mind ok...sik semestinya org yg kurus n atlit ya akan sehat....mun Tuhan nak nyuruh nya sakit, sakitla juak...nangla sik sedar dirik....sik taukka yg dlm kod etika seorang guru, ANDA ya mesti layan semua student sama rata...jgn nak jd bias n prejudis thadap certain students....mala jak gago nak promo sukan...tauk bah org tp sik payah nak gago promo nak mampus....ANDA ya pun blm tentu sihat glak2....mls na aku nak nangga muka ANDA esok.....cobala aku blh gugur kursus tok......tang mbik jak kat ukm lak.....ANDA ya nang obses dgn sukan....sian!!!!!!

-im healthy though im big size-

aNgoLLL...

• aku tgh angol.
• aku tgh pening palak.
• aku dpt info lain aritok tek.
• info ya molah aku mkn panas.
• aku kepak.
• aku ngantok.
• aku malas nak gi kuliah esok.
• aku sik tauk gney nak ngilang ingatan tok suma.
• pliz help me.
• i want my life back.
• aku tgh sik tentu nyawa tok.
• HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-im angol today-

kEaDaaN tErKaWaL....

wpun msh manas n emo, tp eth is under control....n after had a talk wif sum1, i feel better...i tink maybe that person purposely does this to show off...to show to me that that person is better...
boleh belah!!!ko ingat ko bgs glak la, boleh jalan dgn kebagusan ko ya.....

no mood utk nyambung....kepak coz seharian berjalan nak muang rasa geram tok....lgpun esok kuliah...bye e1....

-im getting better now-

i StiLL HatE u....

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u CaN gO 2 HeLL...

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WeLcOmE bAcK 2 KeLaSsSs...

• wah the first day of lecture.....nangla best dpt start kuliah balit tp ntahla, sikda semangat glak aritok tek....kepak kot coz last nite, jt had 5-hour sleep....kira mcm sik ckpla juak.. haha....tp nang hepi nemu blt klasmet...cerik dah bpisah bertahun lamanya jak...haha
• aritok tek nang jd durjana la ckit....bkn main gik ngeso brg2 baru kedak pencil case pooh kaler ijo, beg inti kaler ijo n jam tangan kaler biru....haha..plg penting, rambut br hasil cukur sendiri guna shave ok!!!!haha....nangla save budget btol.....
• aritok tek mdm so pdh nya sik dpt msk lecture utk 3 weeks...boley??pegi spore indah....saje je nak pdh, suruh i n nana jeles la ya...ko tak baik tau so!!!!haha....saje je!!!
• then msk la pulak MR NYOLET yg ganti mr t...ntahla, rs semngat jak blaja tek though yg len mcm dah lost jak...haha....dpt msk gik ya apa diajar nya mcm schemata, encoding, decoding, what makes reading difficult n so on...nangla rasa genius jak aritok tek...haha
• aritok tek terasa pulak la coz salu i gago bekerja utk kelas....tp this sem lain dah situasi nya... i dah sik jd presiden class after 3 sem jd diktator dlm kelas ya...haha...tp nang rasa pelikla mula2 tok tp rsnya soon sikda rasa gia gikla....ntahla, maybe jangka masa 3 sem ya sgt pjg...jd dah mcm2 dirasa....haha...pahit, mains, masam, kelat n sbgnya....dahla mdm so tek terimbau kenangan lamak i...boleh nya pdh i tok ketua pdhal dah tukar dah...tp sik nyalah nya juak pun..bkn nya tauk....dahla mr nyolet tek plak tang saje je nak nguris ati i...pdh "i suppose u r the class monitor".....terguris tau!!!tak suke tau!!!haha....tp im gonna miss those moments la... sikpa, i think its a wise think to do..haha....
• in the afternun, pegi ngelayo dgn kim, zack n walter...actually gi lunch tp sampey ngelayo ke hopoh n kenyalang indah..haha....nangla durjana.....i beli dvd baru....tp sik blh pdh title..RAHSIA!!!!!

so far, im kinda tired now...want to watch the dvd i bought jt now tp ntahla, tang kepak jak nyawa tok...haha.....okla guys..esok ada mr dana rajawali gik ya...nak rest lok...sambil ya nak cek bhn2 majalah...bila la nak siap tok...babai

-im quite tired today-

a ConFeSSion tO bE mAde....

• kmk tauk byk org sik cayak dgn statement maut kmk opening 2008 tok tek..yg madah kmk break up...2 be honest, benda tok adalah rahsia n since kmk dah polah statement maut mcm ya, so biarla kmk terus terang....dah sikda gik lg tema BIARLAH RAHSIA!!!!

• byk org sik tauk n i think mmg sikda org yg tauk pun...mun ada pun, jt 2 or 3 ppl jak....hehe....maybe u guys think yg kmk tok mcm kenja semcm jak....wakakah...mun nak list down scandal mandel, mmg byk koh....ieee, tak kuasa aku nak recall ok....haha....

• kmk ngaku yg kmk penah on dgn sumone tp benda ya sik thn lamak...kmk 2 on in 2006....hehe....yajak...apa yg pasti, benda dah lepas jgnla nak dikenang gik....so i hope that i hv made u guys clear k....no doubts anymore....kuang kuang kuang...

• mmg unbelievable tp ya hakikat....cuma sikda rezeki nak tahan lamak...apa boleh polah...tp i tell u guys...b4 tok kmk nang against org bgerek..mdh apala guna n so on la..tp once kt dah kenak, br kita tauk..hehe....

• oklah, yajak ndk dipdh....thanks guys for reading my blog....to nana, yup we stay frens forever....to hai, kdg2 kita akan terpolah benda yg unexpected...thats y kmk tarik diri...hehe....rindu dgn lambaian manja tgnku???lak, kmk overrule ok????to tomo, nang ada hati juak nak berfamili dgn aku tek????to dil, payah kan bila break up????sikpa dil, kt akan mjejak cinta di thn br tok..hehe.

• thats all for now....mls nak nyambung...

-i used to hv someone special in my life-

WeLcOme 2008!!!!

alhamdulillah, Allah merik kesempatan nak ngirup udara 2008 tok....hepi new year to everyone!!!hope the new year brings all the hepiness to us....sorila mlm tek sik sempat nak polah entry coz my area heavily rain....so sik berani glak nak on pc...penakut sik????tp i still fulfill my promise to post a special entry bout reflection of 2007.....

ill start to reflect ya(credit to deal coz her blog inspires me to do this)...2007 was a wonderful year coz:

• i was attached to sumone.....hehe :)
• i got to be the class president for another 2 consecutive years.....
• i was selected as the EXCO JPP BIRO PENERBITAN n PERHUBUNGAN....
• i scored 3.6 for the first time n was listed for the DEAN's award....
• i n my ajks managed to publish 5 buletins during minggu pengurusan.....(banggala)
• i went to ip teknik kl for jpp benchmarking....holiday la actually :)
• i became the hapyhady's (hady mirza's fan club).......
• i went for ROS kat green road ss...so many things happened there....
• i started to watch dvd...boley mcm ya???
• haDy MiRzA was crowned the ASIAN IDOL.....
• cohort 3 performed da bomb during english nite ...(dancing n cheerleading babe)
• first time dpt A utk exam..tok nang bena2 A...(jakun li juak)

on the other hand, ill consider 2007 as a not so gud year to me due to:

• i broke up....huhu...... :(
• i stepped down from competing for the class president post..(perlu ka padah???)
• my pointer dropped extremely...huhu...(mmg durjana ku tok)
• bg akim msk ukm.....huhu.....sikda gik mentor....
• i was,am a loner....
• i was, am busy thinking for the ipbl majalah...(blom siap woi!!!)
• raya thn tok sik byk berjln coz blt kpg....
• i had some misunderstanding wif my best fren(boley dkt nak raya br msg)...
• byk glak keja nak dipolah....dahla urusan kelas, lain gik hal exco...(x time 4 myself)
• blm dpt nyiap album yg dijanji ngan walter....tdah peminat nunggu....

so far, ya jak dpt direflect lok...otak gik ada jammed tok..haha...lak mun ada apa2, update gik.. so, kmk rasa yg 2007 tok mcm thn2 lain juak....jt nya berbeza dr segi memori..or else, it has no difference pun...haha....i appreciate 2007 n i hope for the da best in 2008....wanna take this opportunity to wish everyone hv a gud n prosperous year....mun ada yg sik bgs di 2007, mbik sbg iktibar....mana yg manis, jdkan kenangan....ingat, manusia jadikan pengalaman sbg iktibar n sandarkan kenangan sebagai ingatan....kita hidup ke depan!!!!

-i owez think that every year is da same-