LiFe iS VeRy BusY!!!

my life has been very bz lately...too many things goin ard....assignment, games organised by us n so on...my target now is for my majalah...hopefully blh siap by this week....hmmmm....what has happened so far???i here officially announce that my love for that person has come to an end...its final n if thatperson is meant for me, im sure we will meet again one day in future...now, im fine i shall say...i hv nth much to worry on the love love story.....what i need to do now is cracking my head to think of the performances for the gala nite....i hv the idea but x sure if my class will accept it...really hope they will....but who knows...anything can happen now ya!!!life has owez ups n downs....so does my life...im packed wif many things for the moment...hopefully eth goes on smoothly...hopefully la!!!!so hv to go firt coz i hv things to do...will trymy best to keep updating my blog....bye

-ive been very bz dude-

aFrAiD oF BeiNG ReJecTeD....

• jt finished watching dunia baru 3, the final episode...i jt cant think of anything....rite now, im thinking of giving myself a try n never give up...thats what i learn from opie...she likes rio but her heart says adif...so what shd i do now???
• a fren of mine told me that i shd give myself a try...but im afraid of few things....what if "I"(bkn nama sbnr) hates me????what if "I" humiliates me????what if "I" just wanna play ard???i just cant think of the embarassment that i need to shoulder if that happens....
• my fren oso told me to ask for the phone num....ya Allah, im x sure bout this....what if "I" gives other ppl's num????what if "I" scolds me????i cant think of that....
• rite now im confused....i wanna approach "I" but how....ya Allah, plizz help me....i wonder if my life will be hard later....i wanna hv a happy life...i want the rship starts like blooming flowers....but will that be a reality???how i wish that all the happiness is showered to me????u can only wish ASHAIRI!!!!im afraid of being rejected....huhu...
• im stucked n duno what to think...the more i think, the crazier i get.....

- im afraid of being rejected-

ReLaKu MeNunGGu....

• cant i hv the 2nd chance???will i be able to live wif sum1 that i like???will there be somebody who can take care of me???will that person be able to stay wif me till the end of my life???those r questions that i hv in my mind at the moment...its x that i dun want to post new entry but mind is not in the gud condition at the moment...i keep thinking of sumone that im x sure if that person feels the same way...i think that person does not feel the same way...maybe im the one who claps wif one hand (bertepuk sebelah tangan)...i really want that person to be at my side but will that person be able to do that???
• i try my best to get rid of the thought of the person but i just cant...i try to tell myself that the person hates me but i just cant...my heart keeps saying u hv to try for the second time...am i wrong???hvnt i been sincere enuf???this is the first time i experience this feeling....not to say that i never get kenja but the feelings is different this time...i may look fine at the surface but who knows deep inside my heart...so far, i hv tried 2 different methods in testing that person but both methods failed...i thought im brilliant enuf but the luck isnt at my side...i just meet the dead road...both ways are not very encouraging...so i ought to crack my head to find a new way n method...
• maybe im not meant to be loved....just given the chance to love ppl ard me...thats y when i listen to SERIBU TAHUN by IMRAN AJMAIN, the song really touches me.....will u be able to wait for the rest of ur life just for the one that u love the most....some ppl say that CINTA TAK SEMESTINYA BERSATU....but how can we be strong enuf to face it???im not gonna be that strong....coz i know im very naive n weak when it comes to this part...i cant let go once i like that thing....
• cant i hv the second chance????i know im x perfect but stimes we ought to give n take...to that person, though u wont read this.....im willing to wait n i believe that if u r meant for me, im hepi for it...im willing to wait n plizz give me another chance....i might not be perfect but ppl need to be given second chance....

-im waiting for u-

iM HuRt...

MERAWAT LUKA TERPENDAM - LIZA HANIM
Merawat luka yang terpendam

Kesannya masih berdarah

Hendak ku tangiskan tiada pedih

Yang telah terjadi padaku

Pasrah aku terima

Kau hujankan penghinaan

Aku renjis kesabaran

Aku curah pertanyaan

Adakah bahagia nanti akan menyingkir hiba

Dalam ribut ada hina

Dalam tenang ada sabar

Dalam tangis sendirian

Berkemungkinankan bahagia nanti akan menyusur tiba

Bukan ku mengundang bencana

Juga tak ku menabur dosa

Tak dapat dinafi kebetulan

Dugaan menimpa diriku

Rela aku terima

HARAPAN - FAZLI ZAINAL

Doaku agar kau kan selalu bahagia

Agar kau temui insan tulus menyayangimu

Lepaskanlah diriku kerna keredhaanmu

Bukan kerna dendam jua bukan kerna kau terpaksa

Ku tinggalkan memori bersamamu

Ku undur diri bersama harapan
Tidak kesampaian cinta kita

Ku bawa harapan ku pendam rahsia

Ku di kejauhan mendoakan

Agar kau bahagia tiada lagi duka
Daku rela mengundur diri

Ku pasti dikau kan fahami

Tiada penyesalan kasihku korbankan

Andai telah tertulis ku terima ini bukannya ku pinta

Oh pergilah dikau diiringi keikhlasanku

Cuma pengalaman mengisi kekosongan mimpiku

these two songs represent my current state....im hurt n i duno how to heal it...i just cant think of it...maybe im wrong coz i put too much hope...im depressed n im annoyed wif everything....what shd i do???how could that person do this to me???am i not sincere enuf???i can feel that my heart is shattered into pieces...i just cant think of how am i goin to face my own life...im feel frustrated with eth that happens...y???y???y???.......im hurt.....

-im hurt n depressed-

iVe BeeN WaiTinG...

• ive been patiently waiting for u but u have not taken any action....how long must i endure the pain of waiting???how long must i wait for u???i duno if i cant stand anymore...plizz...do sth b4 i change everything....plizzzzz
• i really hope that ull do sth....at least do sth like what i hv done....i did sth crazy n y cant u do the same???if u really want it....chances nvr come twice....grab it while u can...

-im still waiting-

SeRiBu tAhUn...

Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi

Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini

Biar berputar ke arah selatan ku tak putus harapan

Sedia setia

Relaku mengejarmu seribu batu jauh lagi

Tapi benarkah kaki ku-kan tahan sepanjang jalan ini

Biar membisu burung bersiulan terlelah gelombang lautan

Ku masih setia

Adakah engkau tahu… ini cinta

Adakah engkau pasti… ini untuk selama-lamanya

Relaku menunggumu seribu tahun lama lagi

Tapi benarkah hidup aku akan selama ini… yeah…

Biar berputar ke arah selatan ku tak putus harapan

Sedia setia

Jangan putus harapan… sedia setia

this song represents me at the moment...i just cant get rid of the song...it just signifies what is happening to me rite now....im x sure if im hepi, sad, dissappointed or any feelings....what im sure is that ive done sth that i hv never ever expected in my entire life....will tell u guys more bout it....for da moment, jt enjoy the song!!!

-im willing to wait-

LoVe aT 1sT SiGhT...

• hv u ever experienced love at the first sight???i do believe in it....i do believe that we can fall in love though its the first meet up...or maybe just easy to say that u see sumone n yet u oledi fall in love with that person...how beautiful life is created by God....isnt it???but sumtimes, love comes n goes...we just cant predict how long love at first sight can stand....will it bring happiness???will it bring joy???or might it bring sorrow???or maybe it will bring suffer???we just cant have the idea how will it be....but wateva it is, we hv to believe in love at first sight....who knows that person might be ur true love or the perfect soul for u...hehe....
• its nice to be showered wif love n care....its nice to hv somebody ard wif us....its nice to have sumone to belai n pamper us...isnt it???i do think so la....hehe....its nice n it makes u feel that u r the happiest person in the world.....it drives u crazy actually...hehe...n it makes u tidur tak lena, mandi tak basah (imagine how ceridak it is) n makan tak kenyang (this is gud for me so i can slim down a bit or a lot)...how powerful the love is...can make u blind...can make u see all the happiness in the entire world....wonderful isnt it???
• thats how love can conquer the people...it shows how God has created the love in each n every of us...im sure that the rite person has been determined by God for us...its just that we need to search n never give up in the search...i believe that everyone has the rite to be happy...so we hv to have faith in the God's plan for us....
• im hepi today...went out n had a fantastic meal n i was damn sakai to have those meal...nangla jakun aku tok koh....on top of that, i spent quite a lot for my footwear...i bought a BONIA semi-shoes (as corrected by nana the term) n a giogio sandals (wanted to type gigolo sandal coz i forgot the name)....i had seen them last tuesday n i said to myself that if i got the chance to see those footwears again, ill definitely buy them....so the luck was with me...i went to parkson n saw the semi-shoes again...so what's more to wait (this is a direct translation)???just grab the opportunity...so i bought it without any hesitation...i kept dreaming of the shoes after seeing it last tuesday....it was the last pair n yet the last pair was my size...just nice huh!!!then to add my my excitement, parkson had promotion today...they gave cash voucher starting from today till next wed...so kinda saving la juak buying that shoes though nya nang dah sale juak....then went to swk plaza sorang dirik coz NANA mls nak berjalan...nangla tedah aku tok...haha....the luck was wif me again...the sandals that i wanted to buy was still ard...so apagik???just said yes la kan...it was oso the last pair bah...n yet my size juak....so just belila kan...hehe...i hv two footwears now....damn hepi wif them!!!nang rasa best jak shopping tek....
• on the other hand, sth happened when i bought the semi-shoes...dunola but i could feel sth la....not ready to think of it....but what im sure is why must it happen???y cant i just live like normal....maybe ill give myself to think bout it...hehe...who knows it brings sth gud...haha...trust me ppl, dun hesitate to give urself a try...wont know till u try!!!
• i had a great afternun wif nana n a great evening wif saiful....im very hepi today n till now im still smiling....duno y but im sure there is sth that makes me smile...apart from the footwears, i guess so....haha...wateva la....
• so better make a move now...will reveal the secret once im ready...kuang kuang kuang..

-im hepi to own new footwears n due to sth-